I WANT TO MAKE HER DAY BEFORE I DIE!!(note:written from a guy's perspective)

Last night i had a dream ;i was sleeping with my beloved charming,beautiful,girl friend with her most precious Diary tucked to my heart which echoed the musical notes she wrote on it..
In the dream i saw her waking me up early in the dawn with murmurs &whispers in my ear,,her smell had an essence of purity nd ecstacyShe wanted me to love her &love her &love her,,,,,,,she lured me &kissed me &hugged me,,,,,,,,but the inevitability of the situtaion was that i was getting late for my office,,,i had a meeting in a couple of hours,,,but she still persisted me,,provoked me to atleast accompany her to her music school,,It was the day of her graduation,she asked me to come to her concert ,,perhaps she tried to elicit my feelings of concern &aggravate my intentions towards her,,,,bt i was anonymous of my appointment wid her that day!!!!
MY PROFESSION SUCCUMBED MY ASPIRATIONS!!!
after the completion of my meeting i had a party withmy friends just a casual triple tipple & billiards with the last stroke hitting my wrist watch ,,,probably this was an indication of a coming disaster.........!!!time was stopped!!!
I hurried up in the cab to rush to my girl friend's musical concert.i was so exasperated that in the midst i eventually forgot to buy a boquet to wish her ,,it was the cab driver who reminded me this,,,,
HUSH!!atlast i was sitting in the arena to attend my girl friend's wonderful percussion,,,,,,she played so well,,,,,with a whole lot of cheers & best wishes we sat in the restaurant to dine together & had a light talk,,,,in our discussions she expressed her expectations & desires which was somehow seemed difficuilt for me to understand,,,as i could'nt live up to it!!
i realized that our professions came between our WAYS due to that our personal lives were hindered....
She judged from my silence that i was not agreed with her she got up nd fled into the cab.coincidently the same cab which dropped me here"i listen to her last question"(ARE YOU COMING OR NOT????)
BUT MY SILENCE PROMPTED HER TO LEAVE ..
but unfotunately her cab rammed into the bus & there was a huge collision which took a toll on my girl friend's life....she died!!!!!
Next morning!!!!!!
my girlfriend woke me up with her usual tenderness ,,& liveliness
was it a dream now,,,,my girl friend is in front of me ALIVE,AWOKE LOVELY AS EVER
THINGS started taking place in the usual chronological order.....was it a deja-vu or something supernatural...
she comforted me,,kissed me to witness the reality that our love existed with the similitude of intenseness,sensuality & affection,,,,,,,
but as the day passed things appeared to be the same with usual percolations which penetrate through my mind,,,,
i decided that i can't afford to loose my girl friend,,my intentions were clear ..i wnted to divert her attention from her work & take her to some island or suburbs to change our mental state to capture the glory of nature which provocate the feelings of love,,,we spent the whole of our day together,,,,i knew that sooner or later ill loose her so i wanted to give her utmost happiness to make her day worth remembering.................
I REALIZED THAT LOVE MAKING A'INT THAT DIFFICUILT AS I PRESUMED...MAKING LOVE TO SOMEONE & DEDICATING ONESELF TO SOMEONE SPECIALLY THE ONE WHOM YOU LOVE& SIMPLY ADORE IS JUST ANOTHER WAY OF EXPRESSING THE DEPTH OF OUR INTENSITY & TO MAKE HER REALIZE HOW IMPORTANT IS SHE IN MY LIFE & HOW INCOMPLETE MY LIFE IS WITHOUT HER
but as they say "ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END"
finally the of her graduation arrived ..together we went to celebrate that day but this time with a boquet of flowers while each petal claimed commitment towards the stigma
i hold on that diary in my hand in which she wrote lyrics of a love song close to her heart,,i announced to the audience about my girl friend's poignanancy to bring that song publicly...How scared & nervous she was.....i knw her voice had truthfilness & i simply adored her creations
people felt sweetness of honey ,,,,in her voice & sensuality in her pitch....
i took her in my arms to leave for the home.......
i knew that i m going to loose her because my watch broke while i was in suburbs lighting the bone fire...exactly what i had seen in my dream ...just the situation nd mode was altered.....
With utter disappointment i still stepped inside the cab holding her tight smiling at her
it was exact 11:00pm as per my calculations we met with an accident......this time taking last deep breathe of my existance i bid farewell to my life catching the last glimpse of my girl friend's face as lied next to my stretcher luckily out of danger.!!!!!@!

Day before yesterday i was a bit baffled from my mother's question on "the praxis to visit temple?"if one follows the regime it is called a service to god-acquitting oneself in remembering the divine,unseen force.And if one absolve itself of this duty it would mean a sin on his part or rather incredulousness.
Goin to d temple regularly or on fixed days,barefoot or with 'chappals'watsover the practice we follow,the purpose is to get acquainted to god and to remind him that out of our busy lives we took out few minutes for him without traunting and getting a fairish attendance like good 'devotees'
I make it a habit ,to visit temple atleast once or twice a week,light some 'agarbatties','dhoop' in 'mandir' and recite 'chaaleesa' ,on the contrary my mother have occassional trips to temple,but she is perlplexed at this very fact and inquired if she is committing a disservice in not interacting with him face to face and skips her visit to temple..???
BECAUSE she memorizes the 'supereme force's name daily in her hearts-of-heart and do think of him ample times a day,isin't this enough for god to ensure that her faith and belief in him is unequivocal....
though i had a differnt approach towards it ,,I answered that within the four walls of our house we are bound to be obstucted by some unhealthy,impur and negative particals.moreover the noise in the atmosphere is an inevitable barrier
IN 'mandir' the sound of 'ghantis' ,'the murmers of bhakts',,and 'the sermons of pandits' are links that connect us more with 'bhagwaan' here we all come for a unique purpose ie: prayers and wishes with a belief that god's providence works by law though the meaning of it might not be clear..so i guess my explanation conveyed my meaning without any ambiguity in her mind regarding "a visit to the temple"

DON'T U THINK ITS TRUE??

BARE WORDS BUY NO BARLEY!!
I know this might seem to my readers as literary , but this is the truth of life........
Just for example if we pick our youngsters ,,what do they long for or probably what gives them immense pleasure or happiness apart from the material things,,,i guess its a feeling of getting loved or making love to sumone so very special and unique(extremely raunchy,,sexy,,good looking,,sum1 who is far apart by being classier,,distinctive,,,breeding good code of conduct etc etc...)
our spirits are so very exuberant that can't even catch hold of them in words ..HUFF!!
every other gal/guy crave for dose lovely erotic ecstatic notes, which their boyfriendzz/galfreindzz can share with them,, cheesy remarks ..persuading comments ..proposal lines no matter how futile they are those love bites or perhaps in every different way or the other that might in an ordinary sense fairly brings out tremendous intimate "timely"emotions which mite contain substance or hay who god dam who knows.......
those lovely day outs ,,night outs holding on each other those typical kisses that are sailing from centuries and god knows how long they have to continue to sail taking various shapes and forms...he!! GOSH!!!
m not saying m after these kisses or emotional notions or forming a connivance that feelings are emotionless"aka "khokle emotions"
its jus me ..u everybody boggled on a very simple rather complex issue that in the midst of these emotions and affections love has a very nominal role to play coz love has attainted diabolic approach today ....
forget about kisses of those 1950s..or 80s or current scenario, idea is "love is jus about lust"
its bout marking stamps by physical gestures ,,holding on for the time being your partner till the count completes
LOVE today has mutated as a commodity or possessions like beautiful sandalwood furniture laying bare in the drawing room,,,,,
wen one feels like entertaining guests ////AKA dose "flings" in one's mind ,one step into d drawing room but 1 thing which we 4get is that "at d end of d day one has to sleep in d bedroom"
and this bedroom is what I call is TRUE LOVE
everything or anything before this seems a mirage , ultimately causing disillusionment huff!!!!!!
den why d hell our teens and early 20s spend worthless time in tempting each other with entreaties when its love for money honeys!!!!!
or
love for body!!!!!
if simple,,innocent,,love exits it is bound to take shapes of strong affectionate friendship that calls for care and dining but not for SIZZLING night outs
I believe bare words buy no barley ,,you've gotta be sharp from mind.. smart ..sensible
guys//////gals////"Rome was not built in a day"
jus like that love cannot happen in much ado
it demands sincerity....committment,,,responsibility ..affinity , which I guess cant b expected 4m people. today especially teenagers or aka young generation.......
so till that time its advantageous for us to not to fall in love which is futile n on a serious note get yourself groomed up for an admirable disposition so that one day u get one of d most beautiful and sensual love of your life , whom u can love and get love from.........!!!!!!!!!!